LocaKitty (locakitty) wrote,

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some stuff

I wallowed this morning. I did. I admit it freely. Thanks to an IRC pal and a link to someone in cf_hardcore I realized that it was time to move on. I'm being petty. I hate that shit. I think she knew something was up, I was really quiet with her on IM today. I hated to be the wet blanket on her good news, but I was still really pissed off. Emotions suck. I think part of it is that even though I want to move forward, I want everyone to stay where they are, so in case I fail, they are still there and it won't hurt so bad.


I'll just work a little harder is all. I called today regarding a job I'm interested in, she didn't call back. Her partner is out on vacation though, so it makes sense. I'll call again on Monday. I don't want to be a huge pain in the butt, but, I guess I'm going to have to, since that falls in with working a little harder, non?

Today was one of the supervisors last day at 2nd job. She's the one who hired me. She was nice. She wasn't going to stay after the night shift was axed though, so I wonder if her leaving early means she forfeited the severance package. Ah well. I bought a fruit tray at Albertson's for the pot luck. I wonder if it's in the fridge at work. Must check tomorrow. Have to work at least 2 hours. Probably will do 3 and then just throw an extra hour or two in during the week. Need to get as much as possible to pay for my little holidays this fall.

I may take IRC friend's advice and lay low on the IMing next week. This way I'm not distracted by things and I can focus on getting these subcontractors closed out for the end of this project. Need to make notebooks for the next job, too. Hopefully we get the contract, otherwise, that's a lot of wasted paper :)

I have too much stuff in my head. Wouldn't it be great if we had the pensieve like in the Harry Potter books? Just pull thoughts out. That would be great. :) Ah well, welcome to reality. Anyways, need to get some sleep, have work tomorrow and laundry. How exciting.

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