LocaKitty (locakitty) wrote,
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I broke down today in the HR lady's office. I knocked on her door and had barely made it in before I just started crying. I told her about the sexual jokes, about the silent treatment (not from BR but from the boss), about me having to do all of this heavy lifting alone, etc.

I just let it all out. I named names, I told her what was up. I told her that I would really like to transfer out of the department. I also told her that I would be willing to wait until October when M gets back because I didn't want to leave them in a lurch. I told her I just couldn't take it anymore.

She said that she would talk with the boss and ask him if he was aware of what was going on. I told her that I didn't come to her sooner because I didn't want a target on my back and I need my job. I don't want to come off like some primadonna or something, but honestly, I had to lug 30+ lbs of packing materials up a freaking ladder and then hoist it onto the shelf. Alone. All because the boss saw me sitting talking to M. I was asking her stuff about her job, how certain companies need certain things. I explained this to HR lady, that I seemed to get called out when he thinks that I'm not working but that BR and Pit Hair can wander around or take HOURS on a single job and it's just another day in the neighborhood.

I also explained to her that if he wants to make putting the packing materials away *MY* job, then he needs to let me know that and I can do it the same afternoon that it comes in instead of letting it stack up over TWO WEEKS to be done all at once. I hate chaos in my workspace, I prefer order. It's nothing but chaos in there.

I also told her one of the reasons that I took off yesterday was to keep my good mood, because as soon as I walk in the door it's gone. Just *poof* like that. I try and try to go in with a smile on my face, but it doesn't last more than ten minutes. I also told her the other reason I took off from work was to see if they packing materials got put away. I even asked a couple of my coworkers if it was really busy yesterday, they said not so much. IT WAS LEFT FOR ME TO DO.

this is bullshit

So, when I left, the boss was in her office. *sigh*

tomorrow is gonna suck.

the ham made a half serious joke about me working for him full time. I'm almost tempted to take him up on it. It would be a horrible financial mistake, but it would be good for my sanity. It's something to think about.

I need to go lay down now, my head is about to explode and I just spent the last five hours driving pizza all over town.
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