That was to the tune of "If You're Going to San Francisco", except I don't remember if that's the actual title of the song.
Anyways, so, I *still* haven't packed yet. It's 10:30 p.m. Instead I went out for gelato with the 'tron and now I'm sipping on some coffee and procrastinating even more. I need to load up the ipod, too. I did get two books for the trip. The Wind Done Gone, an unauthorized parody of Gone With the Wind and the latest Patricia Cornwell book. I'll probably start with the Cornwell book first. Those are fairly easy to skim through. Bookman's really doesn't want my VHS tapes. Anyone want to go through them and see if there is anything you would like? They also don't want my CDs. Those are fair game, too. I'll invite everyone over for brunch one Sunday (when it gets a little cooler, my kitchen heats up really fast) and you can paw through them. :)
Right, so, leaving for Florida. I'm a little trepidatious about this trip. I'm scared to see what the house is going to look like, how much of a wreck it is going to be. I'm also scared to feel the sense of relief that I think I'm going to feel when I get through security at PBI for my return trip. I don't want to be in Florida anymore. At least not right now. My life is here right now. I like the life I've created here, with all its ups and downs, because it is completely my own creation.
There isn't that danger of running into someone I went to high school with. That uncomfortable "So, how you been?" talk. Feeling like a failure for not being where I think I should be. I don't know. And dear god, it's going to be so humid there. Ugh.
But, I get to see the babies and my parents. It will be weird going back and not seeing my old neighbor though. I just remembered about her not being here anymore this afternoon when I went into Walgreen's. She LOVED Halloween and Christmas. Those were the two holidays where she would hold nothing back in her decorations. Just seeing her house, I think, is going to bring a little stab of sadness.
Maybe this trip will be good for me though. I'll get the chance to really say goodbye to Florida. I am going to make two trips to the beach. One during the day and one at night. I am going to savor that night trip. Heather and I used to sit on the benches in Palm Beach and watch the cruise ships in the distance and smell the air and just talk. Or just sit. I loved those nights. Maybe I can see if J wants to come with me to the beach at night. I think I'll do that on Friday. My last night in town. To keep the memory as fresh as possible.
Right, ok, I'm just going on and on. I'll be available by phone and email if you need me, please keep in mind the 3 hour time difference and limit text messages to one a day, I think I'm over my limit. :)
LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!