LocaKitty (locakitty) wrote,

final attempt at posting this from thursday night

Today was a shitty day.

I was up until about 3 a.m. last night (this morning) icing my knee down and in general, just wasn't tired. Finally, I get to bed and then I am awakened at 9 a.m. by a phone call from my opening supervisor, Mr. C, because the computers are wigging out. *sigh* Walk him through a restart. Yes, I had to walk him through Control+Alt+Delete.


There are workmen tromping around on the roof. I finally get out of bed around noon because, well, there is honestly no point in trying to sleep. I get some lunch from KFC, I should have listened to my instincts and gone and gotten a sandwich at Eegee's. I feel sick after the KFC. I don't think I can handle that heavy frying anymore. While I'm lounging in my house, not cleaning, not doing anything productive, I get about four phone calls from the corporate office for the terrible wrong things that I have done over the past two weeks. *sigh* I forgot to do this, I forgot to do that, I didn't get permission for this, I didn't get permission for that. I finally get to work and am told that some guy really wants to work here as a driver and is ready to work now and will be in tomorrow and so and so knows about this and blah blah blah. Whoa. Hang on, I am not hiring a driver right now. If I am, he/she needs DAYTIME availability. I envision banging my head on the wall. Also, my boss is there doing our inspection. We failed. Oh, the store was fine. Most things are clean. So, that's good. It's administrative shit that's going wrong. My supervisors (and myself) haven't been doing X, Y and Z. I have told them to do X, Y and Z and they haven't done it. It's part of their job, and it's a part of mine. Except, here's the thing, THEY are closing more than I am. Bah, whatever. So, no bonus for us this month. I've already told one supervisor (and I channeled the HAM for this one) it's no skin off my nose if we don't get the cleaning bonus. It improves my bottom line which makes it easier for me to collect a bonus. Only me. That supervisor didn't look to happy about that.


I didn't schedule a closing cook because I had one other supervisor closing with me this evening so that I could take care of inventory and payroll while they took care of the money, etc. Well, she went home sick. I had to do closing cook (which I had planned on doing anyways since I have to weigh all the stuff on the line) and closing supervisor ALONG with taking care of payroll and inventory. At least I had a closing driver. And of course, someone had to call 8 minutes before close to order a delivery at the ass end of our delivery area. And didn't know what they wanted. And paid with a credit card. Fantastic. To top it all off, I was $25 short for the day. I am so royally pissed. I am pissed at everything right now. I am ready to punch a wall right now.

I am burning out. Badly.

I have Saturday off. Movie date is off, other plans came up with him. Great. I tried to weasel an invitation to the function that he is going to, but he's either really dense or just doesn't want to be around me. I'm thinking it is the latter. Especially when I said, "What am I supposed to do now on Saturday? I have the whole day off."
"So and so is free."

Thanks. So, I'm done barking up that tree. Totally done. If I don't completely sleep the day away on Saturday, which is a high possibility, then *maybe* I can actually get to cleaning up my house. I'm almost afraid to go there it's getting so bad. Although, right now, all I want to do is just sit in a dark corner and cry and rock myself to sleep. That's it.

Wow, that sounds so freaking emo and lame, but at the same time, like I said, I think I'm burning out. I'm at my wit's end with these people. I think part of it is that I've been too lax with them. On the one hand, yes I want them to like me and appreciate and respect me. But, what is going on now, I feel, is a bit of a disrespect. I kind of wish I could just fire everyone and start over with a clean slate. *sigh*

I wouldn't do that though, some of them do do a good job. Anyways, I just finished 95% of my inventory. I am going to finish the rest in the morning. There are a few things that I can't reach because I can't crouch. I am going to have T help out with those in the morning before he gets started on his daily dough duties. Then I am taking some time out during the afternoon to go see if I can get some trade and maybe some marketing done for the store.

Anything to get the fuck out of the store for a few hours.

I am beginning to loathe this place.

Upon further reflection, and some of the events of today, I know that it's mostly just tiredness that is causing these rage flareups. I scared some of the people today with my little display of anger. People were really quiet when I got back after I left the store to run a few errands. I did manage to turn something bad into something a little better, at least for my drivers. We'll see if it all works out.

I had a nice evening with Mr. Matt, we had a nice healthy dinner at Guilin and then played a few games of Scrabble(tm) while watching Law and Order and Eddie Izzard. We let the bunnies run around for a while, too. Pepper kept trying to eat Matt's pants. :)

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